Jin and I are best frens..we do anything
that best frens do together...One day, i realised
that i actually fell for
him...so i decided to confess to him
one nite where we camped with other frens. he
readily agreed to be my Boyfren...

Soon we started doing the usual stuffs that
couples
do, watching movies, having strolls in park, eating
together, going
to the beach...but life was not as fun when we are
still best fren....we're not as close as we used to
be when we're still best frens...he doesnt tok much
or continued sharing his problems with mi...and so
i tot he is not a suitable or loving boyfren...but i
quietly kept this on my mind...

But since the day he became my boyfren, i would
always recieve a small teddy
bear frm him... At first i thought it was lovely, but
then i
wondered why he would give me this...

One day, i was walking alone in the park we both
frequent...Then i
saw Jin together with another gal there..I crept
near
them softly overheard him saying "i love u' to the
gurl. I was enraged that i run home
immediately..Jin never said he love me all the while
when wer'e boyfren and
gurlfren.

Then at midnite one day, he came to my
house and passed me another
teddy bear that he used to give me everyday, then
said "Sorry, i forgotten to giv this to you today." his
presence only made mi even more angry so i
shouted at him, "Why u alwiz giv me
this crap? All i wan to hear from u is, I love you,
that's it, izit too hard???"

Jin kept quiet. He took my hand and place the
teddy bear on my palm and left..i threw
the teddy bear into my wardrobe.

The next day, Jin asked me out. We met at e
bus stop near my house...he handed mi a big
teddy bear but i threw the teddy to the middle of
the road as i still couldnt get over e incident. He
remained quiet and went to pick up the teddy. He
didnt realised a truck was coming towards him. I
shouted repeatedly to warn him but he just turned
back and smiled at
me,and...........................

*Bang*.
"JIN!!!!!!" I cried...the nex minute i know, he was
lying
on the road, the teddy in his hands covered with
blood. He was sent to
the hospital but in the end...i still lost him...i've lost
him FOREVER...
after attending his funeral, i went back home
and took out all the teddy bears he gav me since
the day we bcame gfbf...i counted the teddies one
by one... 1...2....3...101...230....300..364...and the
last teddy bear he gave me covered with his blood
was the 365th...it has alreadly been a year we
bcome
bfgf...i squeezed the teddy as my tears
flowed....suddenly...

*I love you~*
*I love you~*
i was shocked..i looked at the teddies...took
one of it, and pressed its tummy..

*I love you~*

i tried each and every teddy he gav me...

*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*......................

and the biggest was the last teddy Jin
gav me, I squeezed his big tummy...

*felicia, today is our very first anniversary.....i hope
to love you,
today, tommoro, the day after
and forever........I love you....*

i dropped the teddy........ i never realised that
Jin had actually told me those words..every single
day....till now... i slowly picked up the teddy and
whispered to the teddy's ear..

"i love you too, Jin..and i always did........"